I have been at a loss for words lately.
That's not entirely true. I have had a swirl of ideas to blog about, to create, to do, to share. But here's what happens.
I get an idea, I write it down, and I forget the tools that I teach. I don't take action, I sit and think and then I doubt myself. I start to believe my thoughts. I doubt that it is any good, I doubt that it is valuable, I doubt that I am even inspiring anyone through this blog. I become a self-imposed bully.
And then suddenly, I'm standing in the shower and I hear God. Or I am driving my daughter to school and I hear God. Or I am walking to get some fresh air and I hear God. Let go.
Today, I was leading some ladies through a sequence to stretch, find balance and breathe on their mat. Then, as they settled down to relax, I could sense that they had stirred up so much energy during our practice, they would benefit from a guided relaxation to release that built up energy.
Once the guided relaxation was over, I could see their bodies surrendered to the surface beneath them and they had finally let go. Then, I heard God. Let go.
I took a deep breath and pulled up this poem of which I read often in class but today, I felt I was reading this poem to myself and of course, I needed to share it not only with them but also with you.
She Let Go -
She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go.
She let go of the fear. She let go of the judgments. She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her head. She let go of the committee of indecision within her. She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons. Wholly and completely, without hesitation or worry, she just let go.
She didn’t ask anyone for advice. She didn’t read a book on how to let go. She didn’t search the scriptures. She just let go. She let go of all of the memories that held her back. She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward. She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it just right.
She didn’t promise to let go. She didn’t journal about it. She didn’t write the projected date in her Day-Timer. She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper. She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope. She just let go.
She didn’t analyze whether she should let go. She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter. She didn’t do a five-step Spiritual Mind Treatment. She didn’t call the prayer line. She didn’t utter one word. She just let go.
No one was around when it happened. There was no applause or congratulations. No one thanked her or praised her. No one noticed a thing. Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.
There was no effort. There was no struggle. It wasn’t good and it wasn’t bad. It was what it was, and it is just that.
In the space of letting go, she let it all be. A small smile came over her face. A light breeze blew through her. And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.
-Rev. Safire Rose